You are right but it this moment in time I have no desire left to do anything.since being married and moving to Pakistan I have lost touch with all of my friends,I basically just had my husband as my best friend,in fact he was everything,I sacrificed so much but looks like it was all in vail
I have been living in a remote part of Pakistan near NWFP,which is miles away from the main cities and dnt have many friends there as I tend not to trust many local folk,,so basically I'm a hermit which I do enjoy,it's peaceful and very relaxing in my own home,which I designed and laid the first brick for,so it holds a lot of sentiment for me,something that belongs to me.i married for love,my husband was from a poor background and I told him I will look after him as being alone there I wanted him with me all the time,which I guess is understandable.
Since the past 2/3 years there have been major problems,hence my travelling a lot but I'm sick and tired of it,it's emotionally and mentally draining me,dnt think I can carry on like this.
He's changed and it's sad.
I'm the type of person that is so committed no matter how hard life becomes but due to a lot of financial problems he's finally feeling the toll of a life that once was and is somehow erasing away with time.
I dnt know what to do,all day I just sit in my room here at my mums house just thinking and thinking.
This must be the longest post I have written in this forum,I guess it will make a best seller
ya ,I know ,it's tough phase.you want to do nothing but cry............but do these things ,these will help you. don't drown in past ,eat ice cream..........go to your bath tub and try to relax............and it's rainy weather their ........it it's raining ,enjoy the rain.....